Well…this is my first blog…I am not truly good at writing my thoughts into words. I can speak them out loud and have them make sense. When I write I just write and nothing more. I really doubt anyone will read anything I write. So since that is the case I will tell a bit about myself.
I blow out the candles the day after Christmas. I have A.D.H.D, which stands for Attention Deficit Hyper Disorder. I do not take my medication and I am semi ok with my decision. I do not regret not taking my medicine, but I do regret taking my medicine in the first place. I rent a room from a couple, I attend college and I work. I am close to six feet tall, I have short black hair, I am over weight and I have a strong stature.
I am nothing to write home about, and I really don’t have anything good to say about myself. I just live my life day by day and try to over come all the difficulties that come at me. I have been betrayed more times then I can count twice on one hand, love is not for me and I am sarcastic. I love my family dearly, I hold close to my heart only one friend and I am more forgiving then people believe. No one takes a chance with me anymore, I can be trusted no matter what people tell you and I have the biggest heart you can find on this world.
I do not take complements very well, I just don’t know what to do with them. I will either just stare at you or I will quickly change the subject. I have a strong mind, a strong heart and a strong will. If I really could relate to any t.v. show, I guess it would have to be the anime show Naruto. Naruto and I are a lot a like in the way we grew up (I wasn’t an orphan though) and how we go through life. I believe that I have the same ability that Naruto does when it comes with people, I can make friends with them no matter who they are or how little of time I spend with them. that’s probably the only complement you will see me give myself.
I guess you can say I had a normal childhood. I played sports, was involved with the community and I was always doing something. I had friends where I lived and I got to play with them a lot.
I wasn’t the normal teenager, but I mean who is? I wasn’t into make-up, or getting a boyfriend (but I did like boys), I just wanted to play sports and that’s it. In high school I was not the best thing to look at, I was over weight, stronger then most boys, and I always wanted to be like one of the guys. I guess you could say it was built into my programing to be like one of the guys. I didn’t have my two older sisters around during high school. So I think that’s one of the factors that stopped me from becoming a girly girl or liking a lot of the things girls did.
I had to grow up fast when I was 17. This was due to my father becoming deathly ill. I had to become a 40 year old at the age of 17. I really didn’t have normal teenage years in the first place, but to almost lose the one person who cared about you most in this world really does put a hole in your mental state. At that time I was no where near strong enough to take the news that I couldn’t see my father everyday like I do and be with him everyday like I do. All I did was break down inside, even though on the outside it looked like I was handling it. I almost snapped at one point. Those long months were horrible.
Other then that….that’s me in a nut shell. There’s not much else to explain, I guess you can say. Meeting me in person in a experience that is a must. It will show you how I have adapted and more of who I am. If you want to know more…feel free to ask.
Theres so many things I want to express, but I can’t. Only because my hands can’t type as fast as my mind thinks and my mind doesn’t want to slow down for me to type. I can type the words I am typing now, because I am typing what I say in my head word for word.
I have so many things I want to express and get off my chest, but it won’t all come out right away. When things get in a jumble in life and all fuzzled up! I just have to write something anything that comes to mind or I feel like I am going to explode! I just wish I could find a way to speak and not have to type. It would make my life so much easier then everyone thinks.
the benifits and draw backs of having A.D.H.D